Addiction, The Lifestyle, The Recovery
Star light, Star bright, I wish I may, I wish I might. Well, you know how the saying goes, and it was going to take a lot more than a wish upon a star to change my life. My mind was clouded from years of drug abuse, and my senses were dulled. I seemed to have absolutely no emotion left at all. Was I destined to live the rest of my life like this? I often prayed that I would be the next to die. I wondered why I had survived so long in the first place. I never thought that I would have made it past my twenties, and at this point I was nearing forty. What was my purpose? Would I ever find out? Would I ever make it to fifty? Did I even want to?
My life had become so much more than a living nightmare. I could not believe that I had wasted so many years of my life chasing drugs, and falling into one bad relationship after another. Johnny was out of my life, but I just invited other men along for the ride. Now that my grandmother had passed away, I knew that my days were numbered before I had to move out of the back house. I would have to find a place of my own, and it was about time. I needed to get my shit together. What I really needed, was to find a new life. Was it too late for that? Was there any hope left for me? Any at all? Had I burned every bridge, and killed every single opportunity?
Book Five of the Sweet Melissa Memoir Series takes you deeper into the self-destructive cycle of addiction. It leaves you wondering why someone with so much potential and family support can become addicted to drugs, and the lifestyle that goes with it. The series contains many TRIGGERS and may not be suitable for the newly recovered. The series may help family members understand how easily one can get caught up in the vicious cycle of addiction. To others it may provide a sort of entertainment. The author wants to point out that no matter how far a person falls, that there is always hope.